No One Gives A Shit (Even If It's You)

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nothing is as it seems
i must choose to begin again
i never see the rage
only feel it as it passes
only anger, never hate
they need to know
how much they forget

sweet release
to make it clear
the past is over
but the pain is here...
take it day by day
find a lover on a back road
and write it down in your planner


everyone wants to be alone

but they don't wanna do it on their own
talk to me, wait a minute, I'm bored
look at me, just a second, I can't look anyone in the eye
it's okay...
we're all fucking crazy anyway

sometimes people...
they don't understand reality has already come and gone and wrapped us all around its blanket of desperation...
we're just a destiny,
one step ahead

most poetry barely makes sense
it's just a flicker, a spark of light in the images of your brain windows
open to a new day

even sometimes they and me wanna kill ourselves and why?
it takes nothing away...
just you....
and how sad it is to see wasted time and nothingness?
a void of life.
where there was once someone as beautiful and as special as Greg making love to Jim James on top of a mountain in the pouring rain while Lionel Messi and I hang out and smoke cigarillos and joints in a hot air balloon, surveying time and space.
three friends.
up above.
why can't I have that anymore?
can I?
Am I the rejecter?
Am I the one leaving others alone?

a sitar comes in and tells your brain, with a buzz, that it's alllllll good
an electric piano rivets in the memory bank delay pedal stowaway of our cancer
a repeating warble called friendship

they never like you
only love you
because it means
they don't have to own you...
they only love you
never like you
cause it means
they have to hide you

...and it's gone....

they really really loved you
just to put themselves above you
cradle the name of a lost dragon son
win the war that can't possibly be won
....admit it and move on
....muster a sigh and sing this song

they only loved you
never liked you
only needed a clown
to get lost in the sound...
they only hate you
just to shove you
because they know
they'll never love you
...and it's okay....it really is...let me persuade you of this...

they really love you
cause they liked you
and it's not because they have to
it's because they want to
even though you're not famous

they never had you......
they only want you......
just to say....
they had it made
































copyright 2018 Lawn Jackson Sullivan Writings Inc.


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